{"id":1540,"date":"2021-06-04T10:59:50","date_gmt":"2021-06-04T09:59:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/?p=1540"},"modified":"2024-03-31T19:52:16","modified_gmt":"2024-03-31T18:52:16","slug":"prestatieverslaving","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/prestatieverslaving\/","title":{"rendered":"Achievement was my drug"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I\u2019m preparing a workshop on burnouts and I\u2019m looking for a motivational speech to have playing on the background when everyone comes in. I\u2019m looking for a speech that emphasizes all the wrong things. \u201cDon\u2019t stop when you\u2019re tired, stop when you\u2019re done\u201d, \u201cMost of you don\u2019t want success as much as you want to sleep\u201d, \u201cWhat is ticking off here is your life, each second is one you will neer get back again\u201d. <\/span><\/p>

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When I reach the videos I would use as my alarm in the mornings back in the days, or those I used to watch before training to get myself in that ruthless mindset, I can feel something building up. \u201cIt ain\u2019t about how hard you hit, it\u2019s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.\u201d \u201cYou are in a fight with an opponent you can\u2019t see, but you can feel him breathing down your neck. That\u2019s you, your fears, your doubts, your insecurities, all lining up like a firing squad, ready to shoot you out of the sky\u201d. I know it\u2019s not healthy, but it feels s\u00f3 good. To grind down on something, sink in my teeth and just go. Achievement was my drug, thats how it feels. And now that my drug of choice is right in front of me I can feel the temptation. <\/span><\/p>

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Feeling good about myself is more difficult now that I have to do it in moderation. I am no longer the best, the strongest, the most flexible, the skinniest, the fastest, the smartest, the person achieving the most. Now, I\u2019m just Nicky. Still okay I guess, but no longer \u201cspecial\u201d. Or I have to find this \u201cspecialness\u201d somewhere inside. Which isn\u2019t easy. Most of the time I am doing pretty good, I no longer get angry at myself for skipping the gym or putting off work to tomorrow. I actually sometimes even tell myself off when I work too long or too hard! But moments like these are a painful reminder of how deep this addiction was rooted.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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exploratie Prestatieverslaving Om een workshop over burn-out voor te bereiden ben ik op zoek naar een goede motivational speech om aan te zetten als de deelnemers binnen komen druppelen. Ik ben op zoek naar een speech die de verkeerde dingen benadrukt. \u201cDon\u2019t stop when you\u2019re tired, stop when you\u2019re done\u201d, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"elementor_header_footer","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[128],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1540"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1540"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1540\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2052,"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1540\/revisions\/2052"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1540"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1540"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nickybosman.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1540"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}